Exit Wounds

Everything we involve ourselves in, leaves some sort of impact. Some of those things we notice right away, others take some time to resurface. For example, I'm pretty sure most of us had a parent or friend mention to us @ 18, to guard our credit and not take that credit card the banks are going to throw at you. Now look, you're 25+ and all of a sudden a credit expert, spewing out all the info you've heard over the last 7 years. Or better yet, those of us with children, how many parental behaviors do we display that are simply learned from our parents before us? Even though you don't have the same relationship with your parents, now, as an adult, the impact of their mannerisms and decisions resurfaces in your life almost daily. 

The challenge we have  as adults, is to unlearn, retrain, and heal all of those things we've experienced over time. Each new phase of life we enter accompanied by some stuff from the old phase. Now, that's not always negative, a lot of things we learn as we get older are good for us and what we would call wisdom. Unfortunately there's also some things that live with us daily that we ignore and suppress. That person cheated on you, it hurt, and now you can't get close to any one else bc that hurt hasn't healed. The person that's in your life, may be the one you've always prayed for but you're blinded by your scar tissue that you never dealt with. Just buried it in the back of your mind hoping nothing triggers it. Or your father wasn't around so you overcompensate by being financially irresponsible and wasting money on sneakers when the children just want your time. But blame it on "I didn't have a dad so idk what I'm doing". The very thought of that is evidence of an exit wound that hasn't healed. 

These are just light examples, but if we're not careful, these wounds will subtly control our lives and lead us to a place we don't want to be. Those wounds can only hold you unto you decide to let them go. Tons of opportunities are overlooked or missed due to the cataracts that exit wounds create. Blurry vision leads to accidents while driving, the same is in life. If you're not over what happened, using it as your fuel, you're going to be bound by it. What's the use of being bound by something you can't even see? Your emotions are not stronger than you, but it's easy to let them run you, but do u want to go where they're taking you? We all work so hard for this "financial freedom" while neglecting the condition of the heart that's going to get us there. Not being emotionally solid will lead you to shortchange all he areas of your life where that emotion is needed. When you twist your ankle, it limits the strength you have, you wrap it up, you limp a little, but protect it the best way you can. If you needed to run you'd surely stumble, or maybe not attempt it all, bc you know the limitations you have.  Once it's healed you go back to normal as if it never happened, "good as new" we say. Our hearts are the same. If we needed them while they're bandaged up, would we be able to use them? Or fall miserably? Would we be able to have the courage to even look under the bandage to see if it's healed or not? Your children may need that heart, your family needs the warmth it provides. Your significant other needs that connection, and without it, all the things around you fade. Now you become the thing they try to get over, years down the line, long after you're gone. 

Exit wounds